30. An end for you and me???

Honey,
I love calling you"honey". It is very sweet, isn't it? We have been loving each other for about more than 4 years. Yes, 4 years... I am trying to search my heart for answers I desperately need and wondering why I let you invade my life when I knew things could never be. You enticed me with hope, fulfilled the loneliness and made life easier to cope. As I looked into your eyes, I have seen through the window of your soul. I saw a heart filled with love. A heart I knew could never turn cold... but it is was not quite enough... When you are torn by two. Two women that you love and it is tearing your heart into, but you have choice to make, to set one of us free...yes, one of us!!! Long distance love is hard! I have told you what I need to tell you , I have done what I need to do for you ...but...you want to release all of your love . Honey, I have to set one of us free and I decide to leave you even though I still love you so much.

Honey, I want you to find a good girl who can bring happiness and peace to your heart. And most important of all, she will be with you when you feel lonely or upset. I really don't want to be selfish. What I want to do is to make you happy...that is all I could do for you. I love you...therefore, I let you go, let you find your true love and deep happiness... with her! I need to say thank you to her because she can take care of you when I am too far away... We are not on the same road, honey! The road ahead is not easy; it is very long and lonely but that is what I choose to do... No matter where we are, I wish you happiness...

Of all the things that bored you
interested you
hurt you
excited you
Much you will soon forget
But I hope you will remember
that I truly loved you

Take care!

29. Nguoi ra di vi dau...

Co da co gang luc loi trong ky uc de tim ra cau tra loi: Nguoi ra di vi dau? Co le chi mot dieu don gian la: co ko phai la 1 nguoi con gai tot... Co dau don lam khi nhan duoc tin nguoi yeu co da yeu mot nguoi con gai khac. Long co ko binh yen, trai tim co tan nat... Co ko dung vung, va chi biet khoc khi nghi den anh va nhung ky niem ngay xua voi va ua ve nhu muon xau xe trai tim co. Co nhu bi tram ngan mui kim cham, co that cam thay dau don lam. Co da khoc rat nhieu roi va suy nghi cung rat nhieu. Neu nhu nguoi con gai do co the mang den cho anh niem vui, hanh phuc, co the cham soc cho anh tot...(cai dieu ma luc nay day co ko the lam duoc cho anh) thi tai sao co lai muon chia re ho. Nguoi co yeu la anh. Co rat yeu anh va ko bao gio muon cho anh phai dau kho vi co. Luc nay day co muon roi xa anh,,, Neu nhu co roi xa anh va co the dem den hanh phuc cho anh thi co se rat vui. Hanh phuc cua co dau co gi, co yeu anh ma... Co ko muon la 1 nguoi con gai ich ky, ko he muon tranh gianh anh de khien cho anh dau kho. Nhung ngay qua co song bang nhung ky niem, nhung qua khu va nhung loi hua cua anh. Chi co anh moi khien cho co tiep tuc co them suc manh de buoc tiep... Nhung hom nay co da bung tinh con mo... con mo hoang duong!!! Nghi den anh long co xot xa nhung co biet lam gi cho anh day? Dieu duy nhat co co the lam cho anh la dung de cho anh dau long va kho xu. Nguoi con gai do chac chan se la nguoi con gai tot, se yeu thuong nguoi co yeu that nhieu, nhieu hon co yeu anh... nguoi con gai do va anh se co hanh phuc tron ven. Gio day co dang buoc di tren con duong ma co da lua chon, con duong ko cung huong voi anh... Co da lua chon roi xa anh. Con duong truoc mat se that dai va co don lam, co van biet nhu vay. Co muon bo lai tat ca qua khu va di vang o lai dang sau va ngay mai...ngay mai tren con duong thenh thang ay, chi minh co buoc di... ...
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28. Loi hua ngay ay!

Em con nho 2 nam truoc anh co noi voi em rang neu nhu em ko do ky thi phong van di du hoc My thi anh se ko cho em co co hoi roi xa anh nua... Nghe that ngot ngao dung ko anh? Nhung anh da quen loi noi cua minh va da de em phai roi xa anh. Em thuc su ko muon nhung vi ko muon long dau them nua cho nen em da quyet dinh ra di va roi xa anh... Mai cho den tan bay gio em van con yeu va thuong nho anh rat nhieu nhung... nhung gi anh noi anh da ko giu loi! Em cuoi cung cung da biet minh nen lam the nao, anh yeu a!

27. Life goes on...

Co thu su rat muon khoc... Cuoc song khien cho co nhieu khi cam thay bat luc va be tac. Co' qua nhieu viec khien cho co phai lo nghi. Long co ko binh yen! Den gio co cung da hieu duoc nguoi con trai truoc kia ra di vi dau. Long co dau don! Dau biet cuoc tinh do qua ngan ngui va duong nhu la sai lam nhung no da de lai cho co 1 vet thuong long va su ton hai qua lon=>khien co ko the nao quen duoc... Ko phai vi co ko quen duoc nguoi con trai do, ma la vi nguoi ta doi su qua tan nhan voi co. Co han...! Nguoi co yeu tha thiet hien gio tuy noi yeu co nhung ko he quan tam den co. Co ko hieu, co da co gang hieu nhung cuoi cung co van ko hieu. Nguoi ta khuyen co nen tim nguoi con trai khac, tim nguoi co bo vai vung chac de co nuong tua va de khoc..., tim nguoi co tam long am ap, san sang om chat lay co vao long khi co thay tui than va trong trai...co the chay den ben co khi co can... ... Nhung co van yeu anh, co van yeu anh tha thiet nhu luc dau va nhung ky niem xua khien cho TY trong co ko the nao dap tat... Co le nao nhung chang duong sau nay anh ko cung co chung buoc? Co le nao co se quen duoc anh? Va co le nao long co binh yen khi co ko co anh trong cuoc doi? Co ko biet va cang ko muon biet vi co so cau tra loi se khien cho co dau long. Co chi muon cung anh chung buoc cho du kho dau hay sung suong... nhung con anh? Co bao gio co nghi rang anh se ko vui khi ben canh co ko? Co bao gio co nghi rang anh se ko ben canh co suot cuoc doi ko??? Anh luon song voi the gioi rieng cua anh va giuong nhu anh ko muon chia se voi co. Co le nao anh ko that long yeu co ko? TY khien cho co dau kho qua nhieu roi. Co muon dung lai... Co the la dung lai de yeu anh nhieu hon, co the dung lai de quen het moi chuyen, co the dung lai de tiep tuc nho nhung va cung co the dung lai de lang quen... Co ko biet, co chi biet rang co da rat met moi roi, co ko co suc manh de buoc tiep nua va co muon dung lai. Nhung roi co lai tho dai khi nghi rang: Life goes on...
Co nho thoi hoc sinh cua co, ngay do co moi yeu anh va co da chim dam trong TY. Ngay do co co nhung nguoi ban chan thanh...ngay do co hay cai va voi ban be, cung hay dua vui voi ban be... Co le vi ben canh co con co ban be, nguoi than va co ANH nen co ko cam thay dau buon nhung luc nay day co cam thay rat co don, ko ai ben canh co va chi co minh co doi mat voi cuoc song. Co buon rau nghi rang: phai chang cuoc song cua co la nhu vay? Cac ban be cua co gio co nhung cuoc song rieng. Ho vui va hanh phuc! Tuy cuoc song cua ho cung ko co gi de dang nhung tam hon ho thoai mai vi ben canh ho co nguoi ma ho yeu, co nguoi cung ho chia se niem vui va noi buon. Co vui va cau chuc cho ho hanh phuc nhung co cam thay chanh long... Con co? Co ko co ai, chi minh co voi co ma thoi... Cuoi cung co cung da khoc...nhung giot nuoc mat qua quen thuoc ay van roi tren go ma co... Long ko vui!