17. Waiting for holiday!

After this semester (only 6 days away!), does not matter I pass or not, I will go travel! Even though I am homesick, I will not go back to Vietnam this holiday. The reason is that I do not want to face with my "old flame", the one who made a difference in my life. I want to be free from worrying!!! So many people asked me why I had chosen to study aboard... :) because I want to escape from undesirable situations in my country. Escape... escape... escape... from myself either!

I only have two best friends and both of them are in Japan now. They are having a happy and excited life! Good for them! I am missing the days we have spent together in Vietnam. We laughed alot, we huged alot, and we cried alot... I plan to go to Japan this summer vacation and I am sure that they are very happy to see me. We will go shopping together, cook together, .... yes, we are together!

After coming back from Japan, I will go back to Regina to see my most memorable teacher. He is the only one who understand why I am happy and unhappy (because he is psychatrist!). He is witty and knowledgable. He always tried to make me smile and he said when I smiled, I could see the beauty of everything around and forget about what make me unhappy. I miss him so much!

Saskachewan is very quite and peaceful! I remember... A last summer day, I went to a meadow and enjoyed the gentle wind kissing my face, the sense that I will never forget! I love Regina, but why I have chosen to move to Calgary??? I do not know... :) Maybe because I was waiting... waiting for a rainbow! ...

The rainbow did not come! The rainbow does not come! And the rainbow probably will not come... If not, I will come to see it :)

16. Nothing goes right...

Nothing goes right...
My final exam is coming; my documents for University is delayed; my friend does not trust me; I broke up with my bf; my work is tired; my teachers hate me... I feel lots of pressure! Someone might feel annoyed, bored or even angry when I keep being unhappy. However, how can I be happy when I have a such terrible life? How ? How? From the bottom of my heart, I cannot smile. My heart is deeply hurt... My hope of being happy is shut down... Everyone tries to kick me out of this world!!! Now I cannot concentrate on anything and sometimes I think I should have not been in this world. I had better disappear... Life is a game and when the game is over. Everything will be over!!!

15. Friendship is a promise!

Dear my friend!
I am so lonely these days even there are so many people around me. It is true that I am always busy and worried about pleasing others. As a result, I forget about myself and do not let myself experience true happiness and deep joy. I always feel pressure and unhappy, for I cannot get rid of worrying about everthing. For me, friendship plays a crucial role in my life. Because of some misunderstandings between my best friend and I, I lost her!!! She is in Japan now and I am in Canada. We are too far away from each other... I would like to borrow blogger to say sorry to her and to tell her that I still care about her so much. I am thinking of her!

My dear girl, hard times do not last forever... but true friendship do! I hope you know you can turn to me... for everything you need-even if it is just someone to listen. I hope you always remember how much I care. I know the road ahead is not easy... However, I want you to know that no matter where we are... I will always wish you happiness. I will never forget the time I spent with you. Please continue to be my friend as you will always find me yours!

14. Concept of LIFE!

The true difference between a living and a non-living lies in our concept of "life". In journey of life, everyone is faced with various hardships. These hardships are like onerous boders laid upon our shoulders. Life moves in cycles. Moods of depression will be followed by periods of confidence and optimism like night follows day. I agree with what my friend said:"life is too short! Enjoy your life!"

... Pleasure is something which satisfies our senses but happiness is something deep seated. It is something which is much nearer to our soul. A hot cup of coffee on a chilly day would surely bring pleasure and it seems very normal but it is happiness! It is my happiness to be in this world, to be a girl, to be loved and to be a daughter of my parents...

12. Today is yours and so is every other day... Happy Women's Day!

8.3.2006
* Happy women's day to all female who is close to me! Did you know? You have in yourself the strength and serenity of the mountains; the power and depth of the oceans; the beautiful and innocence of an open blossom.... On women's day, here is wishing you a day... that is as completely wonderful as you are!

* Happy women's day to my best friends! You give me comfort and bring warmth and are always there with a smile. On women's day, I am doing what I should do everyday... Thank you! Thank you for being my best friends!

* Happy women's day to my mom! I am here today to celebrate women's day without you. When I sit back and look behind. In the midst of a busy, lonely and sometimes hectic life, I find you in every bend as far as I can see, sharing my smiles, fears and comforting me. I am thinking of you. You work very hard for me and our family... However, what do I have in turn? Mom, the road to success may be long and lonely but I know you always find me by your side. Happy women's day to a truly special woman in my life!

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you have imagined" ( Henry David Thoreau).

11. Nothing is perfect... Nothing lasts forever...

Not everything in life is fun. Unpleasant and boring tasks are a part of life. It is not easy to make our dreams become true and sometimes we have to take a long way to reach our goals! It takes time... and it is painful!

I have been in Canada for about more than one year, however, why is homesickness such a big deal for me? When I went back to Vietnam, my friends and family members thought I acted like Canadian and they made me feel that I was not belong to them but when I came back to Canada I was seen as Vietnamese... Sometimes I wonder where my position is???

I am unhappy these days because of my relationship with my roommate. She is a Chinese girl and we are called twins because she looks like me. I love and care about her so much but I do not know why there is a long distance between us lately. She makes me sad because I do not know what is going on with her and how she is doing. I know that she is tired and I can see sadness in her eyes. The bad thing is that both of us are so busy and we do not even have time to talk to each other. I hope that after this semester I will have time to care about her more. God blesses her heart!

10. Evils are beside me!!!

It is not easy for me to work and study at the same time... not at all!!! The good thing to work in my store is that my bosses are Vietnamese and I can communucate with them in my own language. I always try to work and make benefits for them as much as I could. However, they force me to work all the time and everything. They do not give me even one minute to relax and break. Whenever they are unhappy about anything, they do not get mad to others because they are not Vietnamese... and guess what... they shout at me instead... I respected them and did not say anything even it was not my mistake!!!
Sometimes, I feel so tired and have so much homework to do. I really want to ask them to give me a day off but I will be cursed because I bring troubles to them. I am not happy about them. Someone asked me to quit my job, however, it is not easy to get a new job and get used to with it... I am exhausted. I am thinking about if my mom is here or if I am in Vietnam, I do not need to work and feel so much pressure... ^-^