2. Sweet and sorrow memories

My memories

Time slips by slowly without telling us and all of a sudden we find ourselves as adults. Today is January 23rd, 2006. I have been in Calgary for four months, but it seems one year. Nevertheless, when I expect time to fly, it obstinately takes so long to pass. Everything is new to me. I just want to ask my self why I left my family , my friends and my sweet heart behind and I am here alone. No one is here. My room is very quiet and cold. It is a good time to recollect my memories. Some of my memories I wish would never happen again, but some of them I would like to live again.

It lasted only a few minutes, however, it left a mark on my life forever. I was in Ho Tay lake, Vietnam with my close friend. As I sat there on the shore, I felt a golden red light shining on me. I looked up and saw the most beautiful sunset I had ever seen. The sun was a huge red ball and it was sinking into the lake. As it sank, it threw golden red rays in every direction. I shielded my eyes and took in the beauty of everything around me. Then I looked at him and smiled. It was a part of him just like everything else in the world, on that day I felt it too. I enjoyed every moment I was with him in Vietnam. We did have good times together that we will never forget in our lives.

Another of my memories was sad. I did not even know why I was sad or I knew but I ignored reasons. I just felt my heart was beaten. It was raining. I went out in the rain without an umbrella and cried. I just cried in the rain so no one could see my tears. My loneliness was killing me... I always pretended to be happy to my mom and did not let her know I was so upset and in despair. I had many friends and teachers around me, however, I still felt lonely because they did not understand my feelings. I just wanted to be alone and cried alot. My heart was covered by snow. I missed my mom so much. I was waiting for a rainbow. Everyone told me to be stronger...

I experienced alot of things since I came to Canada that make me stronger and help me to face challenges in my life in the near future. I just want to finish my study in Canada as soon as possible and then go back to Vietnam. My parents always want me to be Canadian, but my bliss is in Vietnam. I am lucky, I know but I want to go home. "After it rains, the rainbow comes. After difficult times, everything will be OK." said my psychology teacher.